Ah ha, you say it is im-po-see-blay, that's impossible in french; but yes, i have returned to the xanga world, though in a somewhat limited fashion.  Anyhoo, to anyone who still checks-in on me from time to time despite the chasim between posts, i thank you and i am humbled by your concern... or lack of better things to do. 

Next time... i plan to post a picture of maria's ring (organ playing in background).

CALLING ALL OLDE FOLKS!!! AAAIV SUMMER GET TOGETHER JULY 3rd, 2005.  IF YOU CAN RECOGNIZE 2 OF THESE PEOPLE, OR (skip down)

3 OR MORE OF THESE:

YOU ARE OFFICIALLY INVITED; AND IF NOT, IT'S OK, YOU CAN STILL COME.  JULY 3RD, SUSIE SUN'S HOME @ 6:00; COME EARLY AND HELP SET UP!! BRING GRILL'S IF YOU HAVE 'EM; MEAT, BUNS,  ALL THAT.  SUSIE LIVES @ 1111 S. WABASH (CALL ME FOR DIRECTIONS); LEMME KNOW IF YOU'RE COMING, CYA THERE... FINAL NOTE: CONGRATS MICHAEL AND MAY, 'BOUT TIME!

Can you see me doing this?

I guess to sum things up; this is the big dilemna of my current pre-existing career.  Not so recently; i received an offer to intern w/ the army JAG (Judge Advocate General's Office) for the summer.  It's a great opportunity IF i wanna work there after I graduate.  I'm sure if I intern there i'll know more; but then i have to ask should i wait for this:

For the past 26 years, my dad has worked as an electrican for this truck company, and this summer they also are offering an intership with their in-house counsel (or attorneys that work directly for them as opposed to hiring out).  I still have to heard back since my interview; but waiting will take until the end of the month.  I have to tell JAG soon.  Taking either job will probably direct the rest of my career and possibly shape the rest of my life b/c usually, 2d year summers lead to offers.  In this case maybe not w/ the truck company, but they guarantee their connections will get me a in-house job somewhere. 

Honestly, I like the idea of an obligation to wake up at the buttcrack of dawn to workout before work; on the other side, i also like the idea of having a corner office and getting paid six figures.  Both don't come w/o a catch however. 

With JAG, that means the man owns me for 3 years and will probably place me at 2 different assignments (army bases); away from folks in chi-town.  I'll have to do morning training, and probably lots of traveling, but i'll also have cases where I just listen and talk to soliders and help them w/ their legal problems (contract disputes, wills, trusts, divorce).  I'll also be an officer, start out as a 1st lieutenant, then w/in 6 months a captain, and get more legal training.  On the other hand, it also means a shoe-in to work for another federal agency which also has the corner office and a generous salary but i have to wait three years... but i would be doing good in the world; probably for the rest of my career.       

With the truck company, it does not come w/ a job offer... could they be pulling my chain when they say that I will definately get a job ofer elsewhere??  (I doubt it though, they are a fortune 150 company w/ an annual revenue of $10 billion); still that also means quiting my job w/ the IL attorney general's office b/c they want me to work during the school year.  The reason this sucks, is b/c it means i don't get to use my 711 license (an IL supreme ct rule which allows law students in their last 1/3 of school to appear in court w/ the supervison of an attorney).  On the other hand, it probably also means better pay for the year and a completely different lifestyle (probably pretty posh somewhere in suburbia).   

I have been praying about this for some time, and i think i'm ready to hear from ya'll... Could you see me in a uniform?

Currently Watching House of Flying Daggers see related

Well, i am somehow compelled to write something, though i'm not quite sure what to tell ya'll... ah yes, that's right, i got my wisdom teeth pulled. 

well, actually, that's not never exciting... btw, anybody know what that yellow stuff is in the pic?  well, i will say this about them.  getting all 4 pulled completely destroyed any hope of rest and enjoyment of the holidays... i was gassed so i was sick when i woke up, placed on 3 medications: amoxicillin, steriods, and codene... and so the world did not stop spinning until 10 days later.  i do not blame anyone, just saying that it was a timuluous affair. 

However, going to junho's jr. high retreat was really a blessing.   There were a bunch of kids that i knew from before, but i always find myself investing in the one's in my small group.  i am so proud of these kids.  i mentioned that last year i observed that these kids were not normal ~ that is they're respectful, stop going crazy when you tell them to, and really really love jesus.  This year my sg (team orange) was so encouraging... during competitions instead of hoarding our supplies, they gave them out, they cleaned up after other sg, they cheered for other teams, and even when people were just running around encouraged people... i suppose it's ironic b/c i'm the last to say, "you know, that was really a good job, and keep up the good work" ~ yea, not my style... but i think God was showing me that there is power when you encourage out of love for others... and its something for me to work on.     

Well, one thing that i realized throughout the time and even prior to that was how we live to serve Him, and if i'm not in some way serving God i'm not really living.  i guess this is a person conviction, so don't feel guilty.  but, during the retreat i came so alive, like fresh air had been pumped into my lungs and i could do things again. 

Anyhow, this is a prolouge which lead into pastor Walter Lee leaving, and creating a lot of holes to be filled.   i prayed about serving, and filling the gap... and now i'm going to Bethel.  it's kinda like... OK God, what now-ish... b/c it can be a little uncomfortable at times... but i'm slowly learning to just say God, use me to be a part of this church. 

Side note: i scheduled this semester to not have anything on fridays, so hopefully that will be a super productive time and perhaps more updating.  the importation of foreign flicks continues!  lemme know if you're interested